No-one wants to
talk to me.
Well, no-one who wants to
talk to me seems able to say anything to
engage my interest, anyway. Which is stupid, cos they're saying the same things that, six months ago, would have had me twanging sympathetically and
itching to be back online.
Maybe I've heard all their stories
too many times, and
it's time to move on.
Maybe I'm just becoming one of the Grumpy Old Farts who hang around mostly idle.
Maybe they really
are as dull as ditchwater, and
self pitying vapid
whiners with nothing of
substance to say.
But I think it's probably me.
Six months ago I would have really cared whether Sally will "pass" as a woman or not, once she's
transitioned. Now I just roll my eyes and struggle not to say "
Yes, we had this conversation last night. And the night before. And every bloody night for the last 12 weeks. Get over it
already"
Six months ago I would have pumped Charlie until he told me just what he did to Judith that makes him so sure she will hate him forever, and that he is a Bad Person. And then I would have convinced him he is actually a sweetie. Now I just say
"
*hugs* I'm sorry you feel bad"
I would have tried really hard to make Stephanie realise how awful she is being to her husband. He's a
Good Joe, and she's
a bitch in heat. But six months ago I would have been sympathetic and tried to make her find a way out, and now all I want to do is yell at her, or slap her hard.
Is it my just bad luck in choosing channels, or is IRC really rife with
depressives?
"
I don't deserve to be happy"
"
I don't deserve him/her" "
There's really no point, is there?"
It's my opinion that depressives seek out IRC, and then infect non depressives with depression and dissatisfaction and
guilt-for-not-being-unhappy until
Nice Places sink into the maw of the Black Monster, never to be the same again.
Not on purpose. Just ... haphazardly.
I'm just so
sick of it all!
I simply
don't have the energy to behave as I feel I should.
Six months ago I
lived in my channels.
I don't now. Not the way I did.
I still have
important relationships online... But I have an
offline life too now.
I don't twitch and look at the clock and resent visitors until the leave so I can get back online
now.
I wonder if perhaps I've simply moved on...