My body refuses
to work on a "normal" schedule. I'm nocturnal
to the bone, I get no sleep because I simply do not get tired when it gets dark
, even though I am only getting a couple of hours of sleep a night. It pisses me off.
There I am, sitting at work and suddenly my eyes feel so heavy
I'm certain I won't be able to keep them open much longer. I grab my purse, run to the vending machine
, drop some coins in and buy the most caffeinated drink available and all is good. I make it through the day fine. Okay. So then it's midnight
and I'm laying in bed boggling at my alertness. I am not sleepy. 1am. The same. 2am
. No difference. What is wrong with me?
I have to go through some huge dramatic scene
just to get to bed, things that are somewhat similar in silliness as last night's node - the best way to sleep alone
. Yeah, wonderful. Read a book
? Yeah right, any book I read that can possibly keep me interested normally invokes thoughts that keep my mind turning for hours!
*sigh* I used to say I had insomnia
because it was something cool to say. Now that I honestly think I might, I just want it to go away
Um. Today was an average day. I was planning to go straight home and take a nap but unfortunately I could not fall asleep
(see above) and so the appointments I broke were for no reason. So I feel like I basically wasted
my day other than work. Looking forward to starting classes again
, I'd really like my life to be more busy. And what's with this insane desire to play pool