Love You Less

Sometimes I wake in the morning
And you are my first thought.
And I am not awake enough to remember the hurt you caused.
For a tiny moment I am lost in happiness and lost in you.
Then the world rises and falls into place around me.
And my heart seems not to belong where it rests.
It aches to be with you and away from
Both at the same time
And I am suddenly aware that I love you still.
Love you for what you are,
For what you are not
And for all that you can be.
All that I can do is push you to the shadows of my mind
And hope that tomorrow I will love you less.