this place seems so unfamiliar, yet i know it well
i have decided to stop doing things that make me depressed. this is dangerous territory. this is a time in my life where i could very well stop doing anything at all. i should really have made a resolution to start doing things to make me happy, but anyone will tell you that it's easier to stop than begin.
i can't keep going to school for education's sake alone. it is becoming increasingly pointless and expensive. i can't bring myself to find a job i know i will hate. i've given up on buying a car - i will bus forever. (i will bus to locations with near-non-existant-transit).
i'm basically not allowing myself to dream any unlikely dreams...i'm worried one day soon i'll stop trying altogether
don't tell