I met god in a dream. Well kind of a dream. It was really one of those hallucinations you have when you are really really sick. He took the form of a disembodied voice and then a goldfish in a goldfish bowl and then some things I don't remember. I can't sleep now.

He said to me,

As Job, yourself, yes?
me: Huh? What? god? (For some reason I intrinsically knew I was talking to god)
So I made a bet huh?
me: Yes?
Ever wonder why I give you almost every thing you ever ask me for?
me: Yes. It was concidence though wasn't it?
Isn't everything concidence?
me: No.
It's all what you make of it.
me: I hate to put you on the spot but what did you make of me?
A bet.
me: Yes?
No.
me: huh? This is a hallucination right?
Yes but then so are all visions right?
me: right..... so does that make me a prophet?
no, it makes you a head case.
me: right.....
A bet.
me: Yes?
No.
me: huh?
I made a bet with myself against you and on you.
me: huh?
Understand?
me: ... no
Didn't you always wonder why I give you almost every thing you ever ask me for?
me: Yes?
Because I bet.
me: bet?
As Job, yourself, yes?
me: huh?
You get everything you ask me for but you are never happy.
me: ..... Maybe
You are never happy even with everything I give you.
me: ..... Maybe
But this is natural.
me: It is?
Because you'll never get close to what you need the most.
me: Huh?
You are successful at almost everything you do.
me: ... Maybe
But you are alone.
me: .........
Because if you survive I win and if you don't I win.
me: Does that make you a monster?
It makes me a teacher. If your parents love you, why do they send you to kindergarden?
me: So i'm doomed?
Condemned to the internal yes?
me: no.
Yes.
me: .......
Because you live with everything you want but not with that you need because this is the way things are and its the way things must be.
me: .......
see?
me: .......
see?

The voice repeats see for a long long time until I see a flash and i'm in a gigantic goldfish bowl and there is a gigantic goldfish larger than moby-dick and he says to me

Yes?
me: Huh?
Because you're within yourself in your own little place away from everything you need but with everything you want.
me: But I don't want to be alone
You always have yourself.
me: I don't like myself.
Inevitabilities.
me: huh?
Inevitabilities.
me: So this is punishment?
This is for learning, yes?
me: No. Learn someone else, I don't want to be alone.
You aren't capable of not. yes?
me: no.....
Yes.

It was a scary dream because it was true.