the other night I slept next to someone
for the first time in several months.
we didn't have sex
because she didn't let me.
I'm not good at sleeping next to people
because I have back problems
and I'm picky about what position I'm in,
which conflicts with my loneliness.
one thing that was frustrating was when she was breathing on the back of my neck in the morning
and the cool, periodic air made it hard to go back to sleep.
one thing that was nice was when she scratched my back.
later, I scratched her back.
tonight the cat decided to get in my bed
which he doesn't usually do.
I have to position myself slightly diagonally to make room for him which is annoying,
but I did it anyways.