I keep trying to be

instead of being.

 

Looking for a place to fit into

instead of molding the world to my form,

stretching into it

like muscles within fascia,

elastic and smooth.

 

The box is beckoning,

so tempting with its sharp corners and restraints.

 

Don't you want to join the rest of us?

 

I see you all waving at me, smiling,

tiny figures at the end of a long tunnel

impossibly narrow

my shoulders unable to fit.

 

I wave back and move on,

hoping you don't resent me

or worse, pity me,

as I continue walking in the dark.

Find"ing, n.

1.

That which is found, come upon, or provided; esp. (pl.), that which a journeyman artisan finds or provides for himself; as tools, trimmings, etc.

When a man hath been laboring . . . in the deep mines of knowledge, hath furnished out his findings in all their equipage. Milton.

2.

Support; maintenance; that which is provided for one; expence; provision.

3. Law

The result of a judicial examination or inquiry, especially into some matter of fact; a verdict; as, the finding of a jury.

Burrill.

After his friends finding and his rent. Chaucer.

 

© Webster 1913.

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