Holly shit.
This is crazy.
What is happening to me?
You know, I think you're right.
I AM just a
little boy. Please treat me that way (
Not all the time, mind you). I'm capable of dealing with things. But...i dunno. Maybe
i've been alone too long. Or maybe I'm a wuss. Or maybe i do expect
too much..who knows?
i'm confused. i remember people telling me how
confused they were when they had to go to
university - they didn't know what to do
and shit. They looked at me and went -
wow! (go go computer
geek!). now look at me...questions that should've been
easy as fuck take me a while to answers. i miss all the
signs and all the
clues. are they even
there?
bleh! whatever. things will always work out.
one way or the other. they always do.
jesus. i miss coding. works sucks because of that - no challenge. so i browse e2 hehe. boss gets pissed off, i get back to doing nothing. weird. i got less then 5 hours of sleep last night. talking on the phone. everyone is in various stages of disrepair. looks to me like the big dood is failing to hell and beyond. i dont want that to happen. blah, shits i told him. interestingly enough a complete cycle has passed(startin last november.heh..oh november..oh fuck how i hated that..argh the WORST time of my life). all four of us dated(not each other.ew.). all four were depressed and piss-drunk. all four close to failing. i have to node that. shits. life is NOT boring. i gotta say that.