I find myself in foreign
land, a nowhere home
for a no-one somebody. If I had imagined it in my dreams
it would have been lush green
grass that rolled right up to the rocky edge of the land where dark waves broke in metered endless white sprays. Day and night, and I would walk down in the evening dark to make sure. Stand at the edge and listen to the soft rolling crush of water, shifting in vague outlines before me towards a dark horizon
And so that is how it is, my future dreams of a past named the present and I did not settle down until I found it just right. A tipping
over abandoned with holes in the roof and walls graying slat shack
, a place to call home for my pack of small things and me. Tucked back in the gnarled bent tangle of tired woods close enough to make a five minute walk to the beach
A beach to break hearts at by day. In the evening I slip away into the dark to nurse my own heart. Dwelling over could have beens and no longers. I am the one you see walking
along the edge of the waves and wonder about but never talk to, the weathered bent by the elements distant stranger
This is the end of my reckless journey though, I will remain here growing
unnoticed older until I die. I will become a distant mystery for the future of unanswered from wheres and just whys. Some will spin lies
and half-truth stories around the thin frame of my existance. I carve small rough figurines
out of driftwood
, they are scattered all over the dirt floor of my shack with holes in the walls. Something simple to make more mystery, anything to give my life more meaning I do not understand. A something new to search for.
This is where it starts. This is where it ends.