So here I am, again. Sitting on my couch on a Saturday night watching every type of sappy romance movie you can imagine. At some point in each of the movies, the two main characters have sex, each time I hold my breath. It's human nature for people like me to crave touching someone else. I've read on this site about other people's first times, and each entry sounds so gorgeous because each one of those have managed something that I haven't therefore making them a hell of a lot better than me; if not more experienced. I do understand that sex can be disapointing, but it seems like a sweet letdown to me. A very sweet one.
Theres always a point where I wonder 'Is it just me?', 'Is it how I look or act?'. Granted, if I was a man I wouldn't want to bang as girl who slouches uncomfortably with her hands in her pockets and her head down, long wavy brown hair halfway down her back, but instead of being sexy she uses it as a security blanket.
The main reason I want to lose my virginity is because I have been sexually deprived my whole life. Never had a boyfriend. Never went out on a date. Never worn anything even remotely promiscous. All of this has made me go a bit mad you see. I want to be touched and caressed but it seems my insecurities always get in the way. Hopefully you will understand my distress, and see why theres nothing wrong with someone so desperately eager to have sex, after all it is just human nature.

With love,
Cassidy