i'm wanting for you to be asleep, lost in dreams
i'm wanting for you to be asleep
i'm wanting for you
tracing letters on his sleeping back
mmm, he said, i love you, too.
i had traced 'illusion
come here, his voice said and his eyes pleaded...
hand warm on my arm feverishly warm
"i think i need to love you"
walking out the front door leaving the lights and pulsing beats leaving him
I kissed the side of his neck
and he tasted like sugar.
I remember this night because I was so very drunk,
lying under a tree on a downtown sidewalk,
thinking that this boy, inside,
was like cotton candy,
s l o w l y   m e l t i n g u n d e r t h e s l i g h t m o i s t u r e o f   a   k i s s.
we blew out the candles--released the flickering shadows in favor of lightning.
Whispers in the dark...
me into his neck about the beauty of autumn leaves trapped in a chain link fence and him--of rain caught in the mesh of a window screen--into my hair.
his fingers across my eyelids and my lips to his because neither of us had the words for goodbye.
How did the parting go?
Keys in hand, I looked back at him,
curled into the shadow that had overtaken my warmth,
then pulled the door closed behind me quietly so quietly,
leaving my shadow and a small note behind.
and the sky tonight is black,
the air cool and still somehow heavy.
the moon is just peeking from behind a building
but the stars are hiding, completely, from the world.
i'm wishing on the lot of them (because i know
they're there) even if i never saw a 'first'.
you're precious to me, most lovely
creature. keep my heart warm,
please, and feel free to
make a home of it.
i love you. truly.
in my own way.