I have always had vivid, surreal dreams. I usually remember them, and frequently they are weird enough to make me wake up wondering if there is something wrong with me, some sort of freakish chemical imbalance in my brain that is making my subconscious drop slowly into the depths of insanity without letting the rest of me in on the secret.

Last night was one of the special ones...the ones I remember in highly-saturated color. Usually my dreams are in quiet color, but this one had color like Munchkinland had in the Wizard of Oz. Color so thick you can taste it in the back of your throat.

Last night I dreamt I was a Goddess. I had come to earth in human form to restore the faith of my people, just like Jesus is reputed to have done for the Christians. I was focusing on one person, who was crucial to restoring my religion... I became his lover, traveling with the group of people he traveled with (gypsies? nomads?) and working some quirky miracles...like when I gave them all identical pairs of glittery floral-pattern pants. Produced out of thin air, and fitting each person perfectly. They were amazed at that, that the pants fit each on of them like a glove.

I remember being disappointed that they didn't notice how glittery the pants were.

And like the pop-singer Goddess in the movie Dogma, looking into my eyes could be a very special thing. But it was hard for me. To let someone see the divinity of my soul I had to open something in my mind, behind my eyes, and it hurt to do it. Each time I let someone see my soul it left my mortal body weaker, until it was time for it to return to the earth. The man I had been lover to was so deeply hurt that my body was dying. My body was buried, and he was contemplating ending his own life, but I could not let that happen (remember, he was crucial to the future of my religion!) so I spoke gently in his mind and promised that I would return to him, and that I would always reply when he spoke to me.

For someone who is not Christian, this was a very strange dream. It is obviously a personal variation of the story of Jesus (perhaps with the exception of the pants..) which did not strike me until later. I was not aware of Christianity in my dream...as a goddess I was very egocentric.

When I woke up, I felt somehow wounded, as if I had lost something that was so very, very important. Important but intangible, hidden in that teasing place in your mind where things slip and make you feel like you are so close to remembering but can't. My dream was talking to me but apparently I missed the punch line.

All People should dream this, and who knows, maybe all do. I just can't see how people live without a dream like this.

I am alone, sitting in the living room of a house that's not mine but of course, its home.
I look out the window and it's obviously night time, so I can't help but look at the stars
The beautiful stars shining in their wonderful light blue and white, and purple and deep
emerald green.

This is obviously not right my mind says, it is not correct, stars shine only in white and in yellow and the occasional light blue.

The moon is unusually bright tonight and if I continue with the courage to see, I can view
the most beautiful thing I have ever seen on the moon. There is this dark blue and purple
lightning. Not blue or purple but blue and purple ball lightning at the same moment and
I know that I must be going out of my mind, so I look away, back to the stars and what
greets me is disturbingly beautiful.

Again I must be going mad,I mean my god the stars don't move and even when they do, not in an arc, at least I think.

But, these stars do so, and without hesitation I might add. The rest of the sky goes black
accept for the moon and eight shining stars. They are moving in random arcs at first, then
they all meet what looks to be a few feet (from my vantage point) from the moon. Now they
move tearing across the sky towards the moon, and that's when the Miracle occurs.

They smash into the moon which spreads the blue and purple lightning all accoss the sky and when they get through the moon they explode through the other side making a horizontal prism, the only thing with the courage to smash through the lightning is my heart.

Perhaps I am wrong, there may be one other heart, someday

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