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under-destruction ... as the cells in my eyes and my skin are shriveled and grated off, the neurons in my brain are shutting down and fraying out, the juices in my flesh are vaporizing, the bones shrinking -- as i am dying you ask me: what is your life, that it may be worth losing?

this is the life and the death, right between my eyes, the mark of cain, the crown of thorns. i am alive in the morn and am dead at noon of day.

water:fall. only. god. exists.

harmony: rip the belly of the sky, wreck the mountains, uproot the forests. all. nature. is. one.

this is the forbidden land. delusion of fixity.