Julian, I am in a forest
And I can see you
And I can feel myself smiling in the cool shadows
It is you, isn't it?
Standing on a tree so triumphant
As though you are in a new world
King, to you, I would bow, but only to you
These are your hands that my mind
Is tricking me
Into thinking are yours
And I've always loved you.

I can feel the sun hot on my stomach, warming
Your hands that caress me, twisting
Through my hair are your fingers, kissing
My shoulders, your lips, my lips, touching.
You let me lay back, your hand gently lowering me down
You beckon to the nymph, she brings me water
It splashes on my cheek and you kiss it off
Warm breath on my neck
I sigh at you and whisper
"I could stay. If you ask, I will stay."

But you never asked.
And now I am lost.
Is this real?
Am I real?

You have come to save me,
haven't you?

Julian, you want me
You want to save me

Please?

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