after heads dropped
and eyes closed sleepless
there was a moment of raging screaming piercing, penetrating sound, so loud silence, for her
. she would not fall into warm hands and, she would not slip not again
and there would be no reason for this reason her reason
clenched fist rage
i did not touch your skin, moist fear, you were reeling in forever and so
tense and then your tears sealed my faith in the way we were lost, together
. rightfully so.
i would watch her lips, pursed, raw and sometimes torn from the pain,
just to know they could still quiver like that
. her head always looked so small when it was lost in the pillows.
she could fight her way out of those places,
the ones i did not care to know.
i would hold her, when her body relaxed and her eyelids could move most freely.. she'd find my eyes and the freedom i could spill from them, for her always
. struggling ceased
, she could only nod, and i would know, i would know she was free for the night