Red lines. One and the nine. polar-bipolar beats. Dirty
confused angles of slipshod poured concrete. Concrete
creating sidewalks. Journal this. Remember tonight.
. Main street platform. It accomodates four separate old style red-bird passenger cars. You know, the kind that have dilapidated safety sensors which make every double door a potential flesh slicer. Two express lines. One local. One broken line that always reeks of warm chocolate donuts and whorish perfume. Moving lakes of Koreans with bags of dead groceries surround me. The Flushing iron and steel syringe caps me, taps the vein, and injects one screaming Filipino
with the whitest American accent into the New York circulatory subway system
. My windows provide me with a dark preview of the cityscape, lit up with corporate building windows and reflective skyscraper surfaces. Dusk arrives earlier on cold November evenings. The chill slowly blankets my city around 5 PM with the bitch evil night resting her dark, heavy black whispers on bald building rooftops and oversized hot dog vender umbrellas. Hot dog
s. They have a better likelihood of surviving the fit of anger a third nuclear war would bring than your elderly grandmother. And we sell that kind of robustness here in NYC for 1.50, condiments free.
NY. Nuclear hot dog phantasmic holocaust. The US nuclear defense program has E-3 Sentry AWACS
in the air at all times in the event of cataclysmic destruction of all primary nuclear command posts. Within those airborne aircraft are arming codes for warheads.
A good terrorist will target major coastline cities for nuclear strike.
They will target the White House
They will target NORAD
The United States early warning systems will fail. Minutemen intercontinental ballistic missiles
will not launch. Population death counts of unbelievable proportions will tally as our leaders realize the flawed programming of Rapid Execution and Combat Targeting
. In an ever consuming wall of flame, existence will become simple, still, and new again. California will be a grave
. New York will be a grave
. Big, ugly graves with upturned Volvos and demolished school buildings for gravestones.
Primary, secondary, and tertiary strikes report back to terrorist bunkers with acceptable damage counts. Human loss
. Machinery loss. Amazing confusion on all levels and branches of U.S. government. The President is dead
. Yet the United States
will still launch. AWAC copilots in the sky will check their codebooks against the authorization codes being frantically screamed to them over encrypted channels by handsome Tennessee
army privates with sweaty hands on red keys, levels and levels below ground in aluminum steel metal silos. AWAC pilots will exchange arming codes, with prayers of death to accompany our nuclear black angels. St. Michael
delivering the warheads of God, right? Did the terrorists refer to their missiles with such overt religious zeal, too? In three minutes, enemy early warning systems will also fail. Three minutes to annihilate the United States. Four more minutes for our secondary launch silos and submarines to launch. Mutually assured destruction
in seven minutes.
Give or take a minute.
I pass Queensboro Plaza and my N,R transfer. This hasn't been the first time I've missed a transfer from my daydreams of Sbarro hotdog
s and nuclear war
Red lines. One and the nine. Red lines. One and the nine. On Friday nights when I run out of beer and my workstation crashes from poorly pirated 3D software
, I ride the lines. I people watch. My walnut brown and yellow skin experiences the chill of air conditioned train cars ever mingling with the freezing air of cold November nights
. I will transfer, eat candy bars, and transfer lines some more till I get to the downtown red 1 or the 9. Magic fluxes of time are experienced in those tunnels where I watch rave girl
s, Jewish rabbi
s, and pregnant Spanish women intermingle like some cheesy promotion poster on the NY melting pot
. I smell. I reek of Guinness
beer and twix
bars. I am calmly yet firmly thrown off the 7 line at 5th Ave. by a Latino policeman. It seems that expelling old liquor from my gut and out of windows on moving vessels of public transportation is illegal in his eyes. Punishable by exiting said vessel of public transportation.
is alive with fucking people. I will walk all the fucking way down to Times Square
and acquire my ever most prized subway line there. I capture souls with my Olympus D-450 zoom, digital filmless photography, high quality and easy-to-use digital camera. Extra flash cards jingle against house keys in my pocket. Everyone is beautiful
. At three AM, people turn into colors and sounds, all captured with high resolution 8 X 10 electronic ferocity.
Bitch night heavies her hand upon my face and neck. It is freezing
tonight. My hooded sweatshirt and overcoat do nothing to keep me warm. I notice people notice the miniscule freckles of freezing vomit icicles on my garments. Perhaps they think I'm not a photographer? Perhaps they have stereotyped me as 'trouble
'. Or 'pathetic'? Or not good with computers
The last one makes me smile
South Ferry, bowling green... last stop. I check the battery status on my D-450. I wipe little coat fuzzies off the eight element aspherical glass macro lens. I need a candy bar. I also need to find a one or nine uptown. At this 4am hour, I am beaten. Tonight I don't feel the magic of the subway
, the beauty
of new yorkers, or the excitement of taking pictures of strangers
. It's late, I'm tired, and this is no where near Flushing