I wake up so energized
I wake up fresh from dreams
about people, not talking past each other, not deferring
, being nice and civil to each other.
I wake up energized
with the knowledge that today is another day and that I can change the world
. After all, I am me
, and what more proof do I need?
I wake up thinking about how when I walk to school i'm only six feet to the right of death
screaming at fourty four miles per hour in a mini-van
, but I don't mind, because I know that today everything I do has a pourpose
and every goal
I have in life is a step closer to being completed with every step I take.
I wake up wondering what great adventures and journies await me, how I want to name my future daughter 'Aerith
', and how happy my path will be.
I never go to sleep that way.
I go to sleep, wondering, if a tree will fall on my room in my sleep, and I wont wake the next morning
, and not really caring, almost hoping for it to happen, because that means i'll be free, to meet my ancestors and friends now removed from our presence
I go to sleep, wondering why I sit alone at lunch, why i'm so diffrent from everyone else, whether people call me pizza face
because i'm ugly or because i'm a bad person.
I go to sleep afaraid of people, because I know I can't trust them when they can't even trust themselves
I go to sleep crying, wondering why i'm so weak, why I can't stand alone against injustice
, why I can't stop the world from self-destruction, whether my existence has any meaning on the cosmic scale, and if it doesn't, why I bother to exist at all.
I wake up energized every day, but I never go to sleep that way.