it's the day before my birthday. i am awake right now, watching the sun rise. but i'm not awake because it's beautiful. i'm still awake because the girl i love told me a few hours ago that yes, it was indeed over for good, and yes, i should begin moving on.

and that was that. so now i watch the sun rise. and as each shade of black turns progressively bluer in the sky, i wonder what will become of her. and me.

i wish she was here right now, to hold me and tell me this was all a horrible trick, and that she was sorry, and that she'll never leave me... and i cry because i know she'd rather watch this day start without me.