Today was great. I feel extremely good
right now. Even though i'm having mind games
played against me constantly by a certain person I still feel good. I only go along with her head games so she doesn't get sad that they don't work. I can generally tell when she's paranoid
or hiding a smile
now. It took me awhile but I can once again read facial expressions
. She is a good actress
but not good enough, yet.
I can't really blame her. I only recently realized that I had been playing mind games against her. I just about died
when I figured out what I was doing. To me it just seemed like a bunch of kind gestures
, funny comments
. Everything was interprted as a mind game and I kept on doing it and didn't realize how it.
I finally got the the point where I can tell my brain how to be. Basically I can't become depressed
unless I want to or i'm sick. I find it to hard to keep on track when i'm ill
. Ah well, it's a good day now, my brain shut off enough that I could just laugh today and now as I sit here noding i feel good, my mind is clear
and my body relaxed