Different
tanget, but
applicable.
Nope.
Why? I dunno ... I think I'm too scared. I think that thought of two people who I love so much and who I respect so much feeling so hurt and (possibly) even revolted by something that is so part of me. I think that it might kill me to look into my mother's eyes and see the progression that I know I would see:
"Is she kidding?"
"But she's had boyfriends!
after I explain bisexuality
"She is kidding."
a few hours later
"Oh my God ..."
a few minutes after that
"It's just a phase. I know how she has those phases."
a few minutes later
"Oh, God ... please don't let my daughter go to hell."
"Well, does she have a girlfriend or something?"
after I explain that I am intentionally single for an indefinite amount of time
"It is a phase."
The next day
"Oh shit ... how do I tell her grandparents this? Is this all my fault? What did I do wrong? I knew I should have taken away her Tonka truck earlier. Oh god, oh god, oh god."
a few weeks later
"Oh God ..."
a few weeks after that
"Well, maybe she just needs to find the right boy."
Eventually, they might both get used to it. But that would be a
long time coming ... a damn long time of
explanations and
defensive tactics for me.
Maybe I should just anonymously mail them a PFLAG brochure.