Do you ever get the feeling that you're worthless?
I've felt that way a lot recently. I lost a good job a week ago, I've been sleeping from sunrise to sunset, my financial situation is slipping out of control, and to top it all off, I can't find a job to save my life.
I've been hanging out with friends more often since my termination, and they are all supportive and understanding. I thank each and every one of them, from the bottom of my heart for all of their support and effort in helping me. I'm going out today in search of a good job.
Bills. Insurance. Parking Violations. Credit Card Debt. Just when you think that you are making progress, it all comes crashing back down on you like a ton of bricks. That empty, worthless feeling invades your personal space agian so quick you don't even get the chance to react.
When I finally am able to catch up in my personal life, what more will I have? I will be in a void of financial responsibility. I will have a job, a car, a place of residence, and a family. If the feeling of worthlessness is about not being able to improve your life, why does it also exist once you have reached that utopian state?