I'm sorry that I had led you on even though I had no intention
of falling in love
. I was young at that time, and I did not even know that I was leading you on
. When I laughed with you, smiled at you, and sat beside you in the canteen and in the lecture theater, it was because I had accepted you as a friend
and as a good buddy
I'm sorry that I did not take my friends' hints seriously. When they winked
at me while I was with you, I ignored them
totally. They grinned and hinted among themselves, but I just told them to mind their own business
. I had no idea that this relationship between us was going into uncharted waters
, because I had never had a boyfriend before.
I'm sorry for that Valentine's Day
when you gave me a bouquet of flowers
and that letter. I did not mean to be so callous
as to walk away after a murmuring of thanks. I was in shock and had never dealt with this before. I was also very flattered
, but I was also deep in denial
. I confess that I did not open your letter until a few months later. Even after that, I did not want to have anything to do with it, leaving it in a cupboard along with the flowers.
I'm sorry for my weird behavioural pattern
after that Valentine's Day. I realise that treating you as an invisible person
around me was the most heartless
thing a girl could ever do to the guy who loved her. I will forever regret my conduct
and I know nothing can excuse it.
I'm sorry that because of it I lost a good friend
As Valentine's Day draws near again I think back to that Valentine's when a guy first asked a girl to be his close companion. The girl left, having never answered
him. Leaving him with a broken heart. Years later, she wants to heal the rift
between them, but it is too late.