Anna is spinning in circles. How [Two Little Girls|she hooked up with the other two girls], I
have no idea. I don't even know their names.
[The Girls in Their Summer Dresses|The tall girl], pushing them around and around on the merry-go-round,
makes me a little nervous. She spins them up as fast as she can, waits until [To launch off with absolute faith, to sweep through the ceaseless rings and never be quiet again.|the
absolute breaking point between falling and flying], then leaps upon the ride
[Why did the girl fall off the swing?|The silly-looking girl], in the bright red coat, lies with her head tilted
over the edge, her long brown hair flaps out from her head in [the waves are laughing|a wave]. Most of it
is [pony tail|a comet tail] to her face; some of it drags the dusty ring around them.
They are all screaming [sirens] and the sound always fills me with [Panic Pure|a feeling
not unlike pure panic]. I've never heard my daughter screaming in terror and I
don't think I would like what it would do to me.
I keep expecting the one in red to fly off the edge, tumble to the ground,
her laughter snapping into cries of pain or, worse, [A Preference For Silence|silence]. She doesn't though;
her upside-down smile and thrilled eyes keep zipping past me.
Anna looks a little frightened up there. [In The Mist She Was Standing|She stands straight in the center] of
the platform, her tiny arms wrapped around the metal bars. [She is so beautiful, I gave up Nihilism for her|She keeps moving her
head so that she can watch me] while she spins - I know this is going to make
her far more sick than if she just closed her eyes- [You Can Count On Me|she can see me here]. She is
all gapped teeth and [consciously messy hair|wild, windblown hair]. Her cheeks are icy red... she's a
little afraid. She loves this. [Something about her loves to be a little scared].
Anna is sick in the car from spinning. I don't chide her for her excess. I
figure that I have a few years before [Don't feel comfortable with girls? Have a daughter.|I will have to lecture her on moderation].
I buy her a cherry Mr. Misty from [Dairy Queen]. She sips it in silence and
watches the light posts - she seems to be counting them again.
"[Secret Name|How many, Pood?]" I ask.
"Thirty-seven." She says absently, then looks down and sips from her straw.
"I think." She burps and giggles.
I excuse her, and stare forward at the shiny, wet road and overcast
"Did that little girl say something to you as we left?" I say this because
[She Likes Surprise|they had both looked back at me as they spoke]. "[when daddy was the handsome prince|What did she say?]"
Anna grins but says nothing. [She is stupidly keeping herself a secret, when I know she has sparkly things to show me|She's seven and has already learned how to keep
Nothing I say can pry it from her lips. This makes me laugh.
Anna is wearing cherry Mr. Misty on her mouth like [Tammy Faye Bakker|Tammy Faye] wears lipstick.
Anna is so much like her mother that I feel dizzy.
Angelica is trying to repair the damage in her flower garden. She's [digging
in the dirt]; her smooth knees are caked with mud as [I'm passionate about my plant life|she slings the trampled,
mangled flowers into a bucket]. The expression on her face is stern but [The true nature of the universe|I'm
unsure if that's the true emotion]. Why should she be mad? It was her
dog, not mine, that took up digging in her flowerbeds.
The [My sweet, fluffy puppydog is a feral and bloodthirsty killer. Cool!|puppy- she named 'Killer']- laps playfully at her dirty feet and she grabs a
handful of loose dirt and drops it on his head. The yellow lab pup bounds away from her, tail
wagging frantically, and shakes it away. He runs back to her and grabs the tail
of her shirt, tugs it and shakes his head side to side - even through the
glass door [Hear me roar|I can hear his mischievous growls].
Angelica picks up the spray nozzle and drenches him.
Once again he runs away and loops back for another row.
She laughs and stands for a brief instant before her foot slips in new mud
and she falls butt-first onto the ground.
Killer, soaked and filthy, leaps into her lap and drowns her in [happy dog slobber|dog slurps].
Angelica's mouth is red from my kisses, the edges almost blurry from the
morning scruff on my face. Her arms come forward toward me to pull me back to her... I'm
trying to get up because [stuff that shouldn't happen but does|I'm going to be late for work... again].
She's laying there in bed with the white sheet draped across her. The
sunlight shining in the window behind her turns the white bed into [She does not rustle but her flesh has the moonlit shade of a silver birch.|fleshy
shadows in the shape of her body].
I notice this while I pull [Necktie|the pre-tied necktie] over my head and slide the
knot to my [Adam's apple].
I don't bother taking it back off when I fall back into bed beside her.
Angelica is reading in the living room and I'm trying to do the taxes. From
this part of the room [Did I only dream her?|I can only see her bare foot tapping silently] against the
When I arch my neck up, to look above the back of the couch, [The sun was caught playing unashamedly in her auburn hair, setting our world on fire with giddiness|I see her playing
absently with her hair] as her eyes flick back and forth across the page. [Don't tell her she's beautiful|Her
face is butter cream in this light]. She always sits around the
house wearing nothing but a long T-shirt and a pair of panties, her bare legs
curled beneath her. [Things about women that truly baffle me|It drives me insane] - how do I get anything done?
I sit here for a long time and stare at her. It takes her almost fifteen
minutes to even notice me watching. When she looks up and me and smiles I ask:
"What are you reading?"
She flips the back of the book to me. "[Harry Potter]."
I realize that I've forgotten how to do the taxes again - [I don't know what I am doing|what was I doing]?
[Resting Here With Me|Anna falls asleep lying against me while watching TV]. She doesn't even notice
when Angelica walks back into the family room with three bowls of [vanilla ice
"Well, she went out pretty fast." Angelica sits the tray down and takes a
I nod and move Anna carefully against the arm of the couch and the pillow,
[She Sleeps|she doesn't even stir].
Angelica hands me a bowl and I slip [cold in a warm room|a spoonful of cold sweetness] into my
mouth. She looks down at her bowl and shrugs, then stands and walks back to the
kitchen. She returns with a brown bottle of [chocolate syrup|Hershey's Chocolate Syrup] and covers
her mound of ice cream with a dark flood. She smiles to herself and mixes it until
it's swirls of brown and white.
She looks over at me, [you could lose yourself in the curl of her finger|a dollop of chocolate on the edge of her mouth].
"Do you need anything else?" She asks and licks the chocolate from her lips.
I shake my head and smile. "No, hon, I'm fine. [The perfect moment|This is perfect]."