Okay. So this time
it's not just words,
you know. This time it is in my gut. If
I could show you a picture of the way it
was twisted, you would know what I meant.
Still,
try to see it like I say.
My heart is like a scared rabbit. Hopping
erratically. No. My eyes suddenly
scrunched up and wet, trying to get a clearer
image in my head. No. My hands clenched
around a pathetic piece of paper, crumpled
because I am trying to hold on to something
nowhere near this room.
No. I mean a whole damn wave, exactly like they
say it, a beautiful cliched wave of longing.
I did not really believe these waves existed but they do.
I just felt one.