Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend

Although the third song on Savage Garden's second album, Affirmation, called I Knew I Loved You, was probably written about a romantic love that isn't how I think about the song.  This song has a new meaning for me now that I have met my big brother and sister.  They are not related to me but have sort of adopted me as their "kiddo".  They call me their little sister and I think of him as my big brother and his wife as my big sister.  I have three best friends, one came into my life before this song did and now there is a married couple I met in a bipolar chat room that came into my life a mere few months ago. I introduced them to e2 and now one of them is my "mentee" and her husband is also a successful noder. I'm so emotionally close to them that it feels as if they have always been part of my life and I don't know how I ever lived without them. 

I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

I met them when I was in a manic state and they've stuck with me through the depression that has followed it.  They've done more for me than I ever thought anyone could.  Some of the things are physical, like fixing my computer over VNC or sending me a care package that included a small doll that is an angel named Princess that sits on my headboard and went with me on my recent visit to the hospital for assessment.  My friends have helped me by making phone calls for me when I was a blubbering idiot and needed to make doctors appointments and such.  They call me on the telephone almost every day.  It feels so good when they call just to call me. 

There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home

Some of the things they've done for me are spiritual.  They pray for me.  They remind me to be strong.  I can truly be me, the real me, all of me, with them.  I don't have to hide anything from them.  They're such wonderful people.  They make me feel alive.  There are no secrets between us.  I've called them at weird hours when I was upset and they didn't complain. If it weren't for them I might not even be here anymore. They have truly saved my life, and more. 

I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you

I have struggled with self-injury for years now. My friends have supported me and with their encouragement I threw all the blades I found cleaning my room into the trash and every time I was tempted to pull them out they helped me through it.  They've been there to listen, to give gentle advice, to sternly tell me no, and to nag just enough.  I think God sends angels in the form of friends and I feel extremely blessed

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you

Lyrics from "I Knew I Loved You"
By Darren Hayes and Daniel Jones
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This node dedicated to my big sis and bro,
you know who you are.....I love you.


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