It's late. I've taken some sleeping pills so that I will sleep without continually staring at the dark ceiling and worrying ... they should kick in soon ... Last day of April. The last time I logged in to E2 was in December of last year. Man, has a lot happened since then. Laid off on January 3. What a way to start off a year. I'm not exactly sure why I left E2 ... I really enjoyed it before ... it let me escape ...

I took for granted being busy. 60 - 100 hour weeks seemed outrageous and stressful. I didn't realize then that through all of the stress, I didn't have time to be bored. I didn't have time to wonder what I was doing with my life. I didn't have time to think about what I wanted to be when I grew up.

Sure, time off is fun at first. But then the money you've saved up starts to disappear, your friends move on and away, and you're left in this dark hole of confusion.

I guess things always look brighter in the morning.

Maybe I'll go stare at the ceiling for a while and pray for sleep.