My last grandfather is dead today. I got locked out of my dorm and tried to find a place to sleep. Knocked on Emma's door about ten million times, but she is not waking up because her TV is on. Eventually one of my roommates, Sean. showed up. I though he'd gone home; he was only off campus for the evening.
Was late to Scene Shop crew because my alarm didn't go off while I was napping. Felt extremely upset and insecure about this, like after the (failed) first night of Holly's show, or after I crashed my car, or all those times I thought I failed Lina. I think that it is because I consider myself too central to others' lives, and to the integrity of groups. This is not usually true.
I need to take better care of myself, I suppose.