a soft gentleness has been uncovered, found within the smiles and laughs shared between a two people
who would have otherwise never been thought of as gentle, especially not together. time has passed and so much has changed - good, bad, unsettling and chapters have been fleshed out, not yet written. I smile easier
these days and I cry only when I have a reason to more often than not, and a startling realization occurred to me not long ago that the shyness I once called mine has long been disregarded. who is this girl
that sits inside my skin, calling herself by my name but not being at all who I once thought I was? whomever she is, I've come to like her, even if some laugh at me and say I've become all too normal
my days have been filled with thoughts of people
, cramming for tests the day before when books haven't yet been opened, trying to move my mouth in such a way so that my father stops telling me it sounds as if I'm speaking spanish, not french. and a good friend of mine has moved not far away, although I've been neglecting her even still, but it's good to have someone
so close in that sort of way.
I awoke from a dream
only minutes ago that has been lost in a blur of wakening and being unable to fit into the confines of reality, and now a grogginess
has settled over me urging me to miss yet another class. all I really wanted to say today was that I've finally found myself back onto a path that suits me, however odd that may be because I never quite saw
myself here. I am here, though, and I'm happy.