Abby and Anna sit one row in front of me at church. They are both almost finished being teenagers, but not quite. I have always been quite fond of them, but I had forgotten exactly why. In my late teen years I talked to them quite a bit. I don't actually recall them being friends with each other back then. but they are best friends now.
Today I was talking to Anna when she started replying to everything I said with "No it's not", "No you didn't", and "No it isn't". This little playing around sparked a memory of her doing the exact same thing back when she was just a little girl, and made me remember why I talked to them in the first place.
I had some serious self esteem issues back when I was younger, and a lot of them were related in some way to females. I realize now that all I really wanted was for someone to believe in me. The women in family tended to cut me down a lot, while my female peers were often cruel, and even when they weren't, there was still my own fears of rejection that kept my dealings with them from being too positive.
None of that applied with Abby and Anna. They believed in me, or at least they seemed to, and that is all that mattered. It is good to have someone who believes in you, even if it is just a couple of little girls.
When I was 19 I joined the Army, and moved away from that church. I eventually came back home, but I had let myself get too far away from God. I would visit my old church from time to time, maybe about once a year at the most.
Three months ago I rededicated my life to Jesus Christ and rejoined my old church. About a month ago I started talking to Abby and Anna again. Not too much, just to say hello and so on. Nothing has changed. They may have grown up, but they still believe in me, or at least they seem to, and that is all that matters. It is good to have someone who believes in you, even if it is just a couple of little girls.