I am trying to get my life straightened out one thing at a time. I have come a long way, but I still have so far to go.

I think I hit rock bottom about 2 years ago. I was unemployed, smoking 2 packs a day, had no form of transportation, my weight hit it all time high of 250 lbs, my gas was shut off, and I was drinking every day. Not to mention the fact that I was habitually single, depressed, and was suffering from insomnia. My credit was already righteously in the toilet by then, (and I couldn't get a bank account anywhere).

Well 2 years later, I can say that a lot of things have changed. But I am still not where I need to be. I have had the same job for a year now, (I haven't missed a day yet). I rarely drink anymore. I am down to a more respectable 220 lbs. None of my bills are behind, and I have a car. I have cut my smoking down some, (but I still need to quit). I am single, but it is by choice this time. I left the girl I was seeing because I knew she wasn't the one, I was just wasting her time and mine by seeing her. I don't need some random girl hanging around to make me feel good about myself anymore.

But I have so much more to accomplish.

The job I am in is a dead end one. I have already hit the meager salary cap of $9.50 per hour. There is no reason for me to stay there anymore. I can barely afford to eat sometimes as it is. My 24th birthday is only a few days away, but I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. I also have no clue as to what kind of job I could get that pays more than the one I have now, (I don't have a lot of experience with job searching).

I need to buy new clothes. I haven't bought any new clothes in years, (except for khaki pants for work). My wardrobe has degraded to 16 pairs of khakis and a bunch of old shirts. I am not even going to get started on the fact that I only own 2 pairs of shoes, (both of them paint stained).

I need to get in a relationship with someone that I am actually interested in. I have this long history of basically making myself like whatever women like me, (because I don't think that I can get anybody else). The only girl that I have dated in the last 4 years that I was truly interested in was Katie, you can read her story in This Diamond Ring.

I don't own anything but toys! I have lots of computers, a Mame Cabinet, 2 arcade games, a motorcycle, my convertible, and a few scarce pieces of 25 year old furniture. But I don't own any of those normal household items that I should have by the time I am this age. Eventually my two roommates are going to get married to each other. Then I will have to find an apartment of my own. I don't even own a couch, or a television, or a microwave of my own. Not to mention things like dishes. I am going to be in a heap of trouble someday, if I don't start aquiring some of these things now.

I would like to get my weight down to about 200 lbs even. I also really need to stop smoking.

So many things for me to do. One at a time.