Listen, you probably won't want to read this, but I must say a few things or else they'll just stay inside me and I'll end up bitter and that's not good.
No, not good. Already it's not good
I hate you.
I don't even know why I do feel so much resentment towards you...
No, neither do I
. Not any more
... I thought things were sort of fixed
I felt even more enraged when I went on E2 the other day
and saw all the nodes you wrote for ******
...the thought of you makes me cringe...
So where do I go from here?
How do I respond to you? How do I deal with that? This? Now what?
We've had our email bout
, but where does it go from here?
Does it go back to being dead? Did you just need someone to vent frustration
on? Someone to blame? It's my fault. Here, in the presence of some who know me and many who don't, I admit:
I AM A BIG, IRRESPONSIBLE DICKHEAD. I FUCKED OVER ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS A YEAR AGO AND NEITHER OF US SEEMS ABLE TO MOVE ON.
I hope you read this soon, so we can talk about something else for a while.