I just sent an email which may provoke reaction, but all in all, she will probably ignore it as she ignored my aching heart. Fuck why do I bother. I guess it's obvious I still have some feeling left for her, and maybe I am really what she's seen me as; an obsessive freak who can't let go.

Thoughts and ideas of things that happened 6 months ago. Do I bother asking her if I could talk to her and tell her those ideas? Is it just clinging to that obsession?

I just want to return to being friends with her. Is that the honest truth, or is that just some lie I'm using to at least somewhat heal that obsession, by lying to myself that I have her back?

My life sucks royally.