7AM) I’ve
stayed up all night, on purpose – not just in
my usual wandering from fun thing to fun thing manner – but in order to sleep today away. Tomorrow I have to have a
colonoscopy and a
esophagastroduodenoscopy, yuk! That means today I can’t eat anything but
clear liquids and must endure chemically induced diarrhea. I’ve seen others go through this, the preparation is definitely worse than the procedure. So, I thought I’d sleep between bathroom runs. I hope I can.
Or, maybe I’ll finish up 7 already half done
nodes and make level 5. That would put a bright edge on today! But perhaps that would be too much like
noding while drunk.
I promise no more
day logs until after level 5 is achieved but I don’t promise not to add more
nonsense to this one.
Maybe I’ll just get on my
exercise bike until I drop from exhaustion or
lift my weights, or turn my
compost pile……I certainly won’t be
reading any books. I’m already tired, as evidenced by the rambling I’m doing here. I don’t want to go to
sleep yet. I still have 25.5 miserable hours to kill.
DH just left for his usual Monday morning
commute to
NYC. He won’t be back until Friday. I can behave weirdly with no observers. My friend will drive me to and fro tomorrow. Thank you friend Becky.
Wow,
colonoscopy is just a
node shell and
exercise bike and
esophagastroduodenoscopy don't even exist, guess I'll fix that.
12:30PM) I forgot I had to go get my
blood drawn so I did that then wandered around Kmart looking for bargains. $150 later I'm carting home 4 new trash cans, 4 new pillows and new socks for everyone. These are things we really did need but I can't help feeling I'm making stupid choices right now.
Put that credit card away girl! I seem to have caught a second wind. Got the trash to the street for tomorrow's pickup and fed the birds. I had to break through the ice in the birdbath for them. I've become very spoiled by the mild winter but today it is cold.
Stopped at
Starbucks for a hot
caramel cider/no cream, it is really just steamed apple juice with caramel syrup but it is surprisingly satisfying. Just made myself another one at home. I have an
expresso / steam machine that I make myself a caramel
latte with every day but no
milk products are allowed today. Only 20 hours left to go. The
garden is out, too cold today so I think I'll
node some now.
Just nodded off about 20 times, I think I'll cave in now and go to bed. Oh lord, the
hospital just called and they want to videotape my breastfeeding class next week. I HATE being videotaped when I'm teaching. Oh well, maybe it will inspire me instead of inhibiting me but I doubt it. I could normally teach that class in my sleep and I'll probably stutter and uh,uh, uh ... the whole time. Well, off to bed.
"
Goodnight Moon, good night cow jumping over the moon, good night bears and good night chairs ....."
4PM)Up for the first dose of
phospho-soda ("ginger-lemon flavor"). That is some deeesgusting stuff. It literally gave me chills. I'm now thankful for
jello chasers and chemical chicken broth.
10PM) 2nd dose even worse going down and induced moderate nausea for about 15" afterwards. Chicken broth is the best liquid for immediate chaser, followed by jello and
Celestial Seasonings Vanilla
Chamomile tea.
At least the steady trips to the bathroom are not painful like when you have the
flu, just frequent.
It is now the next day (3/5/02) but I’m keeping it here on (3/4/02) because I recognize this node is
frightfully self indulgent and doesn’t deserve to become a 2nd node as well.
12MN to 4AM) slept steady / 5AM to 8AM) showered and a bit more fitful sleep
8AM to 10AM) Becky drove me to hospital, I checked in and the nurse got the
IV in my R hand (very easy, she used a little bleb of
Novocain and it didn't hurt at all plus Becky brought me a "
bed buddy" - a little tube of microwavable materials - to keep my hands warm and veins dilated).
Becky and I “
job share” so she went off to see our patients and I went into a
Versed induced haze. I felt nothing of the colonoscopy and was only aware of them spraying my throat to numb it for the
esophagastroduodenoscopy then I was out of it again. Waking up was much easier than from general anesthesia.
1PM)I’m just a little woozy but out to lunch at
La Madeleine. Yum, mushroom soup and chicken salad sandwich on olive bread sure beats yesterday's fare.
For the rest of the day I slept a lot, my son took me to
TGIFs dinner, and I steadily woke up. By 9PM I'm all back to normal.
I don’t understand what they found, they took some
esophagus biopsies, so I’ll talk to the doctor tomorrow. I think it was just routine to do the
biopsies. I’ve had a long history of
gastroesophogeal reflux and they worry about the effect of that and the possibility of
cancer but I didn’t get the impression it looked like
cancer, just that biopsies are routine. The rectal bleeding source was just a
fissure, which is healing on its own. That sudden bleeding was the reason for the whole procedure so that was quite a relief.