Although the events in ny greatly overshadow the loss
of hermetic, many of us here still wonder why, how, what could be going
through his mind... Those who talked to him privately had a good idea. For
the rest of you I thought i would post a link to a small note he left on
masukomi.org a while ago. And, although it doesn't explain it all I think
it's a good chunk of it.
http://www.masukomi.org/index.pl?id=2343