I’m nothing like you thought I was

I lied to you from the very beginning

you were convinced because I’m convincing

because why would I lie and because you are willing

to look in my eyes and see what isn’t

and never will be

it couldn’t be I don’t have it in me

what you see is what you put there

I learned the lines so I’d get the part

I only pretended to be what you thought

it’s all been an act and not of the heart,

just a fancy of mine,

it’s all been a lie—including that—that isn’t true,

and you’re nothing like I thought you were either

I really thought you were smarter—in fact,

you were so much smarter than me, I believed,

you’d make me become what I told you I was

and once you believed it I could too

but if you believed me how smart could you be

I’m nothing like what I told you I am

now you’re not you and neither am I

and I don’t think I’ll ever forgive you for that