You told me once, in a hand-written letter
in response to something I couldn't remember, that you think my problem is that I feel too much too fast
OK. I'll believe
But now what?
I remember one night stand
s for weeks long after they're gone and one month stands
until my heart
fades away. I can't tear my mind from the boy I'll probably never see again, and distract
myself with thoughts of his kisses and don't know how to not feel this
I don't even know him. I'm not even sure I like him.
I'm doing it again and it sucks.
So now what?
Knowing may be half the battle
, but these are emotions I don't control
, no matter how much it might be a good idea if I did. I don't know how to, and so I remember
, and reminisce and I feel, both far too early and far too long, and I don't know what to do about it.