You told me once, in a hand-written letter in response to something I couldn't remember, that you think my problem is that I feel too much too fast.

OK. I'll believe that.

But now what?

I remember one night stands for weeks long after they're gone and one month stands until my heart fades away. I can't tear my mind from the boy I'll probably never see again, and distract myself with thoughts of his kisses and don't know how to not feel this much, this fast.

I don't even know him. I'm not even sure I like him.

I'm doing it again and it sucks.

So now what?

Knowing may be half the battle, but these are emotions I don't control, no matter how much it might be a good idea if I did. I don't know how to, and so I remember, and reminisce and I feel, both far too early and far too long, and I don't know what to do about it.