nothing but longing

you are a surprise
an accident
unexpected
someone I wanted as a friend
a decade ago
a friendly offer
and a little talk
a surprise

sweetness
comes

when I give up
when I give over
when I despair
when I say

oh Beloved
I am just a bundle of cells
electrical chemical consciousness
me and my biota
longing to reunite
with You

you are a surprise
sweetness comes
when I am nothing
but longing

4/21/17