my heart is like a dark polluted lake.
love floats near the surface, drowning in air,
pale scaled. Night bleeds my skin. Bleeding daybreak
pulls me down, ophelia like. Weed-strewn hair
choking me, choking me, choking me, and,
my pater nosters unheard by gods' ear,
(how can sweet prayers rise through my blood-stained hands)
my sex trembles, birdlike, longs for you near
to me; broken bird, tiny in my palm
--will you ever fly again, little bird?
Or stay forever in your deathly calm
my starlike feather dreams, crushed and unheard.
all alone, lost, abandoned through the years,
i am drowning, drowning in moonless tears.