Today, I found myself trying to verbalize and share my plans for the next year. This is an interesting question for me to consider. You see, I plan others lives' for them on a daily basis. I keep them on schedule. I do their banking. Hell, I even buy Christmas presents for and send flowers to their wives. But planning for me, oh no, hell no. I go about my life all willy-nilly, like a pinball, bouncing this way and that. I have followed the flow of events and let them shape my life.
But recently, I've been evaluating my direction in life. I have big plans. These plans require forethought, planning and preparation. I've even started to take some steps to put my plans into action. I've filled out forms, made phone calls and talked with various advisers.
This work; this personal planning of my life, even just the next year is hard. There's so much to consider its overwhelming, both logistically and emotionally. Sometimes, it is hard to not just throw up my hands and let my life take its course.
My ship has a rudder. I finally found it and I'm learning how to use it.