Today.. later on I have to pick up
my puppy's remains.. we had him cremated.. sigh
It is gonna be one of those 48 hour days
I am kind of a mess.. I dunno.. I ate a lot this week and I feel bad about it.. so I didn't eat on the 28th, and probably won't til Sunday.. I know how horrid this is.. It's a fucking cycle. I feel obligated to compensate.. I don't want a lecture.. it's under control..
I was being silly and going around asking "
Will you be my Valentine?" to people .. It's not about sex.. I have that if I want it.. even though I haven't in a while.. god.. since August.. I just want to feel.. I don't expect to
fall in love, but
fall in like..
Fuck I was suppose to send my resume to someone tonite..
PS - I didn't write about my not eating to invoke sympathy or to worry anyone.. I know it isn't the healthiest.. but I am ok.. I am ashamed partly.. but I need to let this stuff out before it consumes me.. and everything is a good place for that