I think I am very good at injecting myself with tiny
blames during the day, all day, every decision I make is an opportunity for fault, for the proof of my opposite of
innocence.
Forget to face anything and you curl up.
Low frequency is all I have left and it curls in on itself, shudder, shudder, I was shaking to myself long before any of it really started, before there was need for fear.