At first a childhood
, limitless and free
of any goals. Ah sweet unconsciousness
Then sudden terror
the plunge into temptation
and deep loss.
Defiance. The child bent becomes the bender,
inflicts on others what he once went through.
Loved, feared, rescuer, wrestler, victor,
he takes his vengeance, blow by blow.
And now in vast, cold, empty space, alone.
Yet hidden deep within the grown-up heart,
a longing for the first world, the ancient one . . .
Then, from His place of ambush, God leapt out.
--Rainer Maria Rilke