I've started to watch people.
I usually do this when I'm driving, just to take my mind off of driving (not the
safest thing in the world, but I need something to distract me so I don't bitch and moan about every red light). I've also been riding my bike alot so I see alot of people that waySo I watch people on the streets, in their cars behind me, at other stop lights, doing whatever.
Interesting things I've seen while people watching:
I think I'll put a little
extra something into today's log:
Day-Dream Log: April 12, 2001
I saw a guy that I knew from
high school who would "tease" me (he didn't
tease me as much as he was just an
asshole to me and all my friends), so I started thinking about how much I'd like to
rip him to shreds, and before I knew it I was dreaming up all sorts of ways to
kick his ass. My last murderous
fantasy included us engaging in a fist fight in which I grabbed him by the
throat, threw him to the ground, and kicked him repeatedly in the
abdomen, then turned him onto his back and
spit in both his
eyes.
I'm not a
violent person, though!
As I "woke up" I realized that my body was
rigid, with muscles tensed.
I think this dreaming of
fights is alot like my attraction to one of my friends, it's seasonal, it comes with the new growth of
spring.
I don't fight people,
I didn't even kill the person who pissed in my back seat (read my daylogs for
April 1, and
April 2 for that story). I'm not
violent, and I don't get crushes (espeically not on close
friends).
All these strange
emotions must be the fault of the changing seasons.