Goodbye. I was trapped in a vacuum
the solid-blank core of your frozen eyes; lukewarm, I have heaved the saline
And her never-not-forever-warm embrace
every day, to emote oft adrift; counter-actions feigned
My basement corner, half-light till dawn; blinking cursor
a kiss on the forehead, and one on the neck
One for the cat, nestled between the ankles on my ottoman
catch an afternoon fix, and another... no horizon to your depths; some penultimate ethereal death
Vibrating awake with the pang of the faucet handle underneath my left eye, every pore on my face expelling oils. As if an an entire layer.
and I laid down, waiting for the end
She had broken a necklace two days before; my first "real" gift. Bought it on my lunch break, at Zales; it was Christmas 2002 and just a tiny diamond
with tears in her eyes, and mine barely open
"Oh my God! I was so afraid you were going to find out and be mad! But you fixed it," she strattled me. Traces of mascara ran in a line down her rosy cheek
"... but I didn't... know..."
"I don't understand"
her eyes never caught mine the same, ever again
Like living with a stranger
if you want to stay - pretend she doesn't exist
All alone now, and for so long since
you liar
I've thrown myself at, down and upon the gates... begging...
my shadows
So fast, now closing-in... I could yet, or am I gone?
to be, and quietly cage myself in for the night; images flicker and you, dying; laughing, marveling at your creation
Coming, I Am.