What I've made myself to
you, physically and emotionally, and the one thing I tried so hard to
avoid being, simply because I've been hurt one too many times. I want
reassurance so desperately sometimes, but I know you can't really tell me exactly what I need to hear (though,
it isn't your fault).
I think that vulnerability is probably most
evident when it relates to
love,
relationships, at least for me. I've let humans into my
thoughts,
my life, into me, and I've been hurt just for that reason. Though it would seem a simple issue with an even simpler answer, or more appropriately,
cure, it really isn't. I honestly tried not to let this happen again, I closed myself off to such things for a time.. but of course
I failed, thankfully.
I'm thrilled that I've found someone so amazing, so gorgeous,
intelligent, someone who makes me smile, laugh, cry out of pure
intense emotion, that is,
love. I just wish sometimes that love didn't always make me so infinitely
vulnerable.. though, I also don't want to hold back out of
fear. So.. I'll go on, and I'll risk the
hurt I'll risk the unbelievable
pain because I'm happier and more in love now than I've ever been in my entire life.
"These are the moments I'll
remember all my life.." -
Edwin McCain