As I wandered around the
universe today drinking in the sound of cars zooming past on a highway that disrupts the
possible serenity of this particular place, I happened to think of something I'd not yet pondered (not such a
rare event, but it felt so today). I seem to slip in and out of the lives of many
little humans, many, but I don't usually become a significant,
stable part. I kind of just happen along whenever and
conversation or
interaction follows, but fairly briefly (possibly even as much as a day, but even a day is not much when put in
perspective).
I also pondered why this might be, why I might not
fix myself to any one little human too firmly too steadily and then it occurred to me,
I don't really want that too badly. It's nice to have a person who knows you, all of you,
inside and out but it's also kind of nice to just hide that part of you. I don't hide it though, not completely,
it's all here. Little pieces of my soul, previously unexposed thoughts that were simply
sitting in my brain waiting for the appropriate time to find their way to words and subsequently to
reveal themselves to the world, or, my little net'y world here, on everything2.
This is
dreamy. At first I thought it might be a bad thing that I don't seem
completely in or
out of anyone's life, but maybe this detatchment will be good for a time and it will work itself out with me
fretting very little. And any way, the lives I seem to drift in and out of our
infinitely dreamy and I should be so lucky even to share a piece of such things..
So I didn't get any great nodes in today, I didn't really
accomplish much at all, but I helped warm up some tiny baby rabbits that were very
cold and in need of some care. (They were born without our knowledge and under
strange circumstances.) But they should be alright, now, they're all
cozy in with their mother and sleeping soundly.
I guess I accomplished more than I'd set out to do, dreamy! Also I've grown quite
fond of some of the little humans in #everything.. I'll make a point to go there more often. (
CowboyNeal is dreamy, I maintain this above all.) So, now that I've rambled about the goings on in
my personal life, I'll slip off into the e2
shadows and think about noding a bit more, or possibly just browsing through some lurid content.
Theme
songs for today:
morning: "
Have you seen me lately?" -
Counting Crows
afternoon: "
Live Through This" -
Mighty Joe Plum
evening: "
Recovering the Satellites" -
Counting Crows
night: "
Mr. Wendal" -
Arrested Development
And that is that.
I love you noder's.