oh, hello, from the middle of nowhere, here i am again. nothing going on. i thought it would be calming but it's actually unsettling and just like that it is the same old feelings and how the hell am i going to get out of here, as soon as humanly possible because it's awful awful awful.
sure i missed everyone, but i can't stand it here, there is so nothing and i just want to leave so badly.. i miss him. he is home to me.. not this place.
i talked to her last night about random things and i didn't tell her but kept thinking of how we used to be all hugs and close,
best friends. i think it's mostly still there, beneath hurt feelings and confusion.
i'm tired and hungry. also whiny. :)