It only bothers me at
night. The fact that I don't know where the
creep is or if he's waiting for me or what he wants or if he'll
harm me. It's only at night, when I'm coming
home, when I'm alone in front of my
door, putting the
key in, vulnerable. It's only at night, when I'm watching TV,
wondering if he's outside the window,
watching me.
On the positive side, I had a very successful
horseback ride yesterday. Well, I didn't
fall off. And my horse only freaked out once because a horsefly was on his
butt. I'm really
pleased to discover that I can ride a horse after 15 years. The
horse seemed to be a
calming influence on me too. Now, if I weren't so
sore...
Tomorrow, if I get an answer from Director of HR, I'll accept the
offer and start my new job. If I don't hear back from her, I'm not sure what I'll do. I want to get that
paperwork done and then get
out of here - go stay somewhere else for a while. Anyway, it'll be really good to have the whole
issue settled. I've accepted that fact that I'll have to work for this
stupid large
corporation for a little while longer. Now I just want to get it done with and
close this
chapter of my
life. I figure I can get into the company I want to work for in nine months.