Thanks for reminding me to pay my rent. I always seem to forget for one reason or another. I meant to pay it this morning, but it slipped my mind. Tomorrow morning, I promise.

Work is a mystery again. I just don't know what's going on. Okay, I know a little bit of what's going on, but not enough to do a decent job of anything. It makes me want to give up.

I remember a time when it wasn't like this, when I was working with code I knew, code I wrote. It all changed in the past year or so. Sigh.

To enjoy coding again. It was fun once. It was once going to be the point of my life. This isn't it. If this is the point, it's going to be a sad and sorry one.

Please help me figure this out. It's too easy not to do anything about this and to just let it drag on, to keep bearing the weight of suffering instead of throwing it off. But what should I do then? Please tell me how to pull through. Is this simply not important enough to get worked up about?

It obviously isn't, but what is the alternative? Should I even be looking for one? There must be a better way. Instead of looking to fix things, I am looking for escape. That is not a good sign... I'm probably reading the wrong books.

You still have your whole life ahead of you. Fresh from school... but the future doesn't look all that bright on the job front either. Is that not the point? Are there other things about the future we should be focusing on instead of the daily grind? That's probably it, isn't it?