It's very strange, but today I feel even more relief and calm than I did yesterday. I'm really sad, but I'm not devastated. (Is that spelled right?) I didn't talk to her yesterday. Ten minutes ago I told her I didn't want to see her any more. She didn't understand. She was very upset and kind of surprised. And said she didn't understand it at all.
And before today she told me she would totally understand, and expected me to leave. I'm going to update this wu later on today.
She and I are going to meet tonight to talk. I fully plan to say goodbye.